There aren't four books to tell this creation story. There are no gifts or wisemen using the North Star. It's just one man venting to the world! Sometimes most people don't get the chance to be themselves for various reasons. Sometimes it's work, or family, or friends. In the end they lose themselves because they have another side that is trapped inside them. I created this blog as a way to let my alter-ego out. This creation story is not well thoughtout or pre-planned. It's just a rant.
Don't be offended by what you may read. If you are, fuck you. You were pre-warned.
As a kid, I was always kinda quiet. I usually kept things to myself. Let them stay internal for far too long. I let people live because it didn't really matter to me. I used to be humble, and in real life, the life I live day-to-day, I am. I get up everyday and I go to work. I'm the busy little worker bee between the hours of 830am and 6pm. I leave my place of employment with an overwhelming sense of nothingness. I look back and realize, while I worked all day, I truly did nothing to better myself or my fellow man. But what really would I rather do for work? I don't really know, but I know working everyday fucking sucks.
So why even go to work? Oh yeah, I have to pay fucking bills, and continue to buy shit I don't need, and save for a rainy day...but every day is a rainy day. It's never enough money, you always need more. I feel like I'm broker than I was in college, making like $6 an hour. Yea they tell you "you are making good money" but when I look at my pay stub I always feel like they lie. 30% goes to taxes. To keep the streets paved, but I have been running over the same pothole for 7 years. To educate children, but kids are dumber than ever, even with Google reeling these fuckers everything. Google even does math for you. And these kids still can't count. I had to learn math in my head. No calculators or smart phones. Then out of that remaining 70% you have to pay healthcare and vision care and dental care just in case you get sick or poked in the eye or a toothache. So you really down to having 60% to live off of. But wait they tell you to tithe 10%. How do you split that between the offerings? The building fund (church been the same size for 27 years tho) , the offering of this and the offering of that...in any event, down to 50%...but you supposed to save 10% for the rainy day...but you don't because you can't figure out how to eat, pay mortgage, buy gas and enjoy life with only 40% of the money you make.
So what's the alternative? Don't work, be a bum, tell your boss to fuck themselves and move into the basement of a relative. Nah we can't do that. Because we need the latest MacBook and iPad and iPhone and Jordan's and Belts with a big G on it. Still can't get with paying $400 for a belt. You can get 40 belts from Marshall's for that. That's even worse than the morons that buy the same Jordan's every week because they have a new color. Shit, I'm one of those dudes that does that. Does that make me a moron??? Probably, but oh well.
This is just the beginning, stay tuned for life stories, rants, pictures and whatever else comes to mind as we take a look into our alter-egos. You can follow me on twitter @bpfillherup or Instagram @angryblack
Angry Black Man
